Someone once said "With age comes wisdom." Or does it? I think it is more a reflection of hindsight or the fact that we recognize the deep possibilities of consequences that could befall us as a result of actions. We've all been there making decisions big or little and lets face it some have not been great, but others, man oh man they bring us the joie de vivre of life with all its many rewards and challenges. Age definitely influences decisions, a main driver with this is that we usually have someone else in our lives that may live the consequences of our choice.
I find myself at a very large crossroad in my life, its the intersection of emptynest and what's next. Scooterpie Jr has emerged from her coccoon and is a beautiful butterfly making her way in the wider world, which makes me proud as a mom, but also strangely longing for yesterday and all the 'little moments' along the way. Nostalgia seems to be my constant companion at this point as I keep going back and thinking about the many things over the course of her 18 1/2 years. During her childhood she was my little girl inching each day towards adulthood and the day that 'freedom' would be her ultimate goal and her foray into the ratrace of life. Its funny because the perceived freedom she is longing for is elusive, for she will never be as free as she was when she was a kid, she just hasn't realized this yet. We are at the point where decisions for the future are being thought about by both her and me! It is exciting seeing the contrast in our respective lives.
I am being a little more adventuresome, but not foolhardy, I call it reserved spontaneity, because in the process I now weigh out cause and effect a little more. With the stage I am in now my daughter isn't as dependent on me anymore and is far more independent than I was at her age. This allows me to have more time to me and pursuing things I never dreamt possible. My middle life has brought great change, challenges, and adventures. I almost feel like a teenager again testing limits.
I've come to realze life is a set of stages where we grow, change, or are static at times and then start the process over again. So my question to you is, is age just a number or is it a state of physical wellness or a combination of both?
2 comments:
Just a number. Any more thought beyond that sounds like work... ;-)
When I was a teen, thirty years was old to me. But these days for me age becomes less important as one is ageing. Because without adding up the numbers... we wouldn't get old, right?
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